I wish I could fast forward everything at the moment. I’m trying I’m trying I’m trying I’m trying but it’s like all hope is lost and I’m slowly breaking down all over again. I want the strength I know I have to come back and fight off all these demons in my head. I can’t let everything that’s going on get to me. I need to relax, I need to learn to breathe properly so I don’t have another anxiety attack and just need to relax my mind. I can’t let people see me breaking down or want them knowing what’s going on. I just want to focus on myself and have no distractions till everything is okay again and I earn everything I had once, back. I don’t wanna lose moments moments of happiness because I continue to worry myself and freak out and over analyze everything. Over-thinking things that make absolutely no sense. I’m praying you’re hearing me out on this one because I really could use your help. Please.